Mini Me

Reality has been constantly setting in since my graduation. I'm currently interning at an organization that provides after school programming and mental health services for children with incarcerated parents. This is really being done out of the curiosity of this population and to build experience in the field as well. But since being finished with school for the time being, you can't help but think about the future and how close some things seem to be getting. The first real thing I plan to get is a car once I land a solid salary position. I need to make my own moves and I need my own space. Being self mobile allows all of that and it's pretty much about time. In addition to that I think about relationships, and I guess this is where it gets juicy; where the rubber meets the road.

I met a special person when I was freshman in college, we clicked and for a long time all was well. One thing I admired about her was how crazy she was for her brother. She was always holding him down, would do anything for the little picne if need be. I never seriously thought I would marry this woman or anything, but I did think she would make a great mother; for whomever. She was and still is a very selfless person and it's that kind of quality I think led me to some of my more recent thoughts. I was asked recently about when I would like to have kids. This is damn near a million dollar question right? Well off the top, who really knows? I know that circumstance for sure though.

When I have a kid I want to be:
In love with the mother of my children

Preferably married

employed with stable job as well as some investments making their own little movements

no longer selfish and ready to make a whole bunch of years about someone else first

To back track a little bit, I would first have to find the right woman. So who is the right woman? The right woman is sexy, driven, intelligent,articulate, people friendly, can cook a little bit, can dress her ass off, is honest, is fun, and isn't often complacent. Alright, alright that sounds too politically correct right? Well the right woman is also good in bed, can have great conversations with, likes to go out and dance, loves trying new things, and pushes me to go out of my box as well. All that being said, you can say I'm quite meticulous #ohwell. I honestly think I know someone with all of those qualities and would love the opportunity to take things slow, slow, slow to a romantic point #idontthinksheisreading.

My point is I don't know when exactly I want to have children...or a child. I know I want to be with someone I described hopfully by my mid 20s. And then it now depends on what we both want and some compromises. In a perfect world I will have a child before 30. I want to be a cool dad that gets to play ball with his kid, still be into all the contemporary music, and still whoopin ass in 2K (I will never ever stop playing 2K and Grand Theft Auto, sorry).

*Side Note*
Video games are to my generation, what radios were to my mother's generation. She never stops listening to the radio, and you will see older people playing video games, it's commonplace to us. I'm not saying we are sitting down 24/7 playing, but if you're a gamer you know what unique things playing video games can offer.

But as I was saying, I really want to make sure I have created a comfortable life for myself before I bring a kid into things, I'd want for my little man to be comfy too. I'm simply trying to live responsibly but this all starts for me with making the responsible choice of who I want to mother my child.

Luckily that time has not come yet, I still have some selfish time left, but what about you guys?